I Believe
Music and Lyrics by Yamaguchi Yuko and Jim Steele

samishikute kotoba mo denai konna yoru wa
kimi no egao dakishime nemuro humm

futari nara doshaburi no ame kogoeru asa
te o tsunaide kitto arukeru sobade

I believe kie kaketa ano hi no yume
itsudemo te o kazashi mamoru
wasure nai

When I’m feeling small
When it’s cold outside
I don’t know who I should believe
And when I needed someone special just by my side
Who was there?

I believe someday I will love
Someone who’s by my side
Oh someday
My special one will come alone
I’ll pray everyday

I believe kie kaketa ano hi no yume
itudemo te o kazashi mamoru

So I believe moshimo kazeni furuete iru toki wa
futari de sagaso hi no sasu basho

Someday I will love
Someone who’s by my side
Oh someday oh someday
I keep on praying everyday

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I’ve been neck-deep in watching the second season of Buffy the Vampire Slayer (the DVD set), since I borrowed it on Monday from Todd. I own the first season on DVD and it was really good, very funny. The writing for Buffy is pretty amazing, but then when you’re watching it, you have to remember that Joss Whedon is one dark motherfucker. I mean, Buffy isn’t supposed to full of happy endings. In short, I really like this guy’s style. I would call it a dark comedy… but I don’t get that sense, in the style of Kubrick being dark comedy or Heathers being dark comedy.

Anyway, this entire week has been spent pretty much either at the arcade, turning my legs into twin spires of jelly or recuperating with personal bachelor cuisine and watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I did the usual, went to Karen’s on Thursday night for the weekly dorama absorption. Hit the batting cages. But this week has been pretty much devoted to my Buffy fandom. I’ve been reading up on the seasons following the second, and I’m pretty sure that I now need to go buy my own copy of the second season, along with any future seasons that end up coming out.

In other news, I’ve recently discovered Craigslist, which is general a community mailing list with a web front end to read posts. I’ve subscribed myself to three lists. One has to do with the selling of computers and computer parts, which I’m always in the market for anyway. One is about available apartments in certain price ranges, as I need to not live with mom and grandma anymore. The last is casual encounters, which is primarily about 95% of really horny guys in the Bay Area looking for a quick one night stand. Now, I’ve not answered any of the ads, but oh my god… I have pissed myself laughing. Some of these guys are just fucking brazen with their ads, and it makes my shift pass a little quicker when I’m just laughing too hard to care how boring it can get sometimes. I realize that might seem cruel, but I couldn’t care less. It’s very entertaining. Though, I do wonder… do women really lower themselves to answering these freaks? I hope not. Geez.

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It tends to sneak up on me at the most inopportune times, it seems. But then, when is there ever an opportunistic time for this to happen to me? It’s very frustrating for me to have all the creativity flowing like a water faucet, only to find out that the well is temporarily dry. It’s like taking a shower and then discovering the hard way that there is no more hot water.

I’m finishing the rest of Brotherhood of War: The Berets tonight. Maybe I’ll gleen some inspiration from it.

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Let it be known for all time that I love to bake. Cookies, cakes, whatever. I find baking more relaxing than the tedium of cooking, probably because cooking requires talent, whereas baking requires exactness. Anyway, one time, I baked these chocolate chip cookies and sent them off to ’s meeting and she said they were the best ones she’d ever had. Modesty notwithstanding, I decided to publish the recipe and my variations on it over at the WNOHGB group at Yahoo. So, if you’re interested in baking and want to see what I did, I invite you to click here.

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There’s a single line written by W.P. Kinsella in Field of Dreams and spoken in the screenplay by Kevin Costner, as he’s quoting Terrance Mann (played by James Earl Jones), wherein there lies a moment in your life when all the cosmic tumblers fall into place and the universe opens itself up just a bit. Like a moment of clarity or epiphany. Wednesday night, when I went to go pick up Todd from his work and took him home, it seemed as though we were in a real need to revisit the good old days of high school and talk about how much things have changed since then.

I can recall the days of old, some of them are glossed over, while others remain painfully clear. When you’re young, you do a lot of stupid shit, for sure. You just do. But that’s all part of the maturing experience, vital to that whole being an adult thing that must come. I look back on my early college years as opposed to my current situation, and I’m still rather confused as to how the hell I got here. Oh, well.

I went looking for a whole bunch of good mp3s tonight, and I ended up just looking for all the missing Dorama themes I’ve been wanting for a while. I ended up getting the other two themes from “Over Time”, “Tokyo Love Story”, and Star no Koi (which is going to drive Karen up a wall, since she told me she’s been looking for this song for a while). The songs from Over Time that I was missing was the song done by Yamaguchi Yuko called “Believe”, which is a really sweet slow song, and Kaede by Spitz. Spitz is a group I just recently got acquainted with.

UPDATE: I finally finished Star no Koi! I love this series, now. Definitely adding it into my collection, just as soon as I get done copying these .mpgs over.

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As usual, I have found a new obsession, though this one is all Karen’s fault! She finished the “Over Time” tapes, and thoroughly let me have it over dragging her through that series and causing her grand amounts of distress over it. She exacted her revenge by introducing me to “Star no Koi” (for which IMDb has no entry). This series is pretty amazing, with a plot similar to “Yamato Nadeshiko”, except that instead of a stewardess looking for financial happiness, we have an actress who’s struggling with her own identity, and at the same time, falling for a poor salaryman who maintains his adoration just like most guys stupidly do. The tension is so thick, it’s almost unbearable, but I keep on watching to see what happens! Bleh! I will have to go out and get something so heartwrenching that Karen will keel over and concede my dorama superiority! Muhaha!

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Some notes before I begin: I finally got my KOR TV Box set, and I got Neverwinter Nights as a birthday gift! I really need a machine with a GeForce, now. And a nice working top of the line one, too…

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I was just commenting to a friend that I really miss San Francisco. Back in the day, I was a regular weekend visitor to this absolutely amazing city. This was back when Ken Lau used to live there, instead of now living in Las Vegas. To be honest, I just really liked the sense of being in a city with definition and character. San Jose is a great city to live in, but I wouldn’t want to visit it. San Francisco, on the other hand, is a great place to visit, but I wouldn’t want to live there. If that makes any sense whatsoever, then continue to read.

Last night, I went to go see the Giants take on the Arizona Diamondbacks in a night game at Pacific Bell Park. The Diamondbacks got pasted 6-3 in a really chilly night game, where the fog rolled in right off the bay and into the park. It gave the park a really smoky effect, and I was loving every minute of it. I love San Francisco weather. I love the fog, the winds, the fact that one hour it’ll be bone-chilling cold, and in the next blazing hot. But see, it never gets too hot, because of the ocean breeze, and that’s why San Francisco is just so damn cool. No pun intended, of course. By the time we left, it was a little after 2100 and the winds were gusty and awesome. I love being tossed around by those gusts.

This morning, I had to wake up at 0800 to make it to my sister’s place in Manteca before 1000. My father asked me to drive him to Santa Rosa by way of Richmond (i.e.: crossing over the San Rafael Bridge, instead of the Golden Gate). He was buying a truck from an old friend of his, and was going to stay the night in Santa Rosa and then drive the truck down tomorrow morning. So, after doing all of that, it meant I got to go into San Francisco again. Just before I got to the Golden Gate Bridge, the fog started rolling in again, and the twin sections of the bridge disappeared within the fog when I looked up in the middle of rush hour traffic. It was the one time I didn’t mind being stuck on the bridge, as I opened both windows and just let the winds into the car. It’s too bad I didn’t get to stop in the city and hang out, because then it would’ve made that trip even better.

*sigh*

I love San Francisco.

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The Face of the Smiling Vulcan has been posted up at that fanfiction site.

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I followed a few links off of ’s page, and wound up at this fanfiction.net place. Since I’m a writer of Trek fiction, I decided to also sign up for an account. So if you feel like following another link, you can just click here. I also put a link on my home page, under creative accomplishments. Now all I need to do is find all my older finished short stories and put them up. Yay.

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I’ve actually had the first three episodes of Mahoromatic for a long time, but I’m sort of the kind of fanatic who prefers to have the entire series in front of him before he dives in with both feet to partake. I did see the first two episodes at a friend’s house before copying the episodes from CD. They were digital fansubs (digisubs). Karen finally got me the other nine episodes, so I finally finished them. It’s a cute series, and the ending tugged at my heart, made my eyes a little misty.

The story revolves around a battle android who, at the end of a large war, is given the choice of either staying in a battle configuration and living out the remainder of her life (37 days) or having all of her battle options removed and living life as a civilian model for an extended period (397 days). She decides the latter and ends up serving as a maid to a junior high school kid named Misato Suguru. It’s about twelve or thirteen episodes, and it’s something I could watch over and over again.

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