I think there’s some switch deep down inside me that likes pushing the envelope, but there are times when you’re in the middle of pushing on whether or not you think that’s pretty going to be it for you. Today, after working a 12 hour shift and spending almost six hours in the city with Jesse trying to find a location to watch the rest of Green Green for the radio show, and after pizza and just trying to stay awake, I decided it was time to go home. Now, when I’m feeling fatigued from work and I need something to get me through driving the 60+ miles from the city to San Jose so I can sleep, I will turn to my friends James Darren and Ol’ Blue Eyes. The music forces me to sing and keeps me awake since I’m trying to break vocal cords. For some reason, though, it wasn’t working this time around. I was actually nodding off while singing, which is pretty amazing… another talent I didn’t know I had ๐Ÿ˜›

Obviously, I made it home, though. I hit random so my brain couldn’t rely on memory for which song it was, so every 2 minutes, I had adrenaline coursing through my system as I snapped awake. The funny part of it was when I was so tired, I started “dreaming” about the people in the cars around me. I could not help but be amused by that later. I could safely say that had it not been for the music, I would be dead right now.. or at least seriously injured. Fun fun ๐Ÿ™‚ I never want to do that again.

By the way, I’ve never had much of a fear of dying, but more than likely a fear of putting others at risk. I mean, if I’m going to go out, I’d rather it just be me and no one else. But I had no other alternatives. Every single time I have pulled over to nap, a cop has tapped my window and told me to move on. Five times. Not today, but in the past. So, I don’t do that anymore. There’s one rest area on 280 south near Half Moon Bay, but it was full of tourists. Bleh. Yeah, no more pushing the fatigue envelope… I’m too old now, and I’m not a young man anymore.

My birthday’s this Saturday, and I’m trying to get the day off from work, to no avail. It sucks if I have to work it. :/ I want to go to the JTAF general staff meeting and meet all the new peoples ๐Ÿ™‚ I’ll have more later, I’m sure.